And I am tired physically and a little mentally
*at the request of friends.. previous pic was removed..*
Here's the deal... Along this week took a picture of the moon at the prompting of Yap
I know its just a white balance effect...
But some how it struck me...
A deep sinking feeling that can't seem to be moved...
You know how some times when you get unexpected news...
Your heart sinks to be bottom of your stomach...
Its that feeling but there was no news
No reason to be feeling so ....
I mean yes a lot of work... F7 & F8
a lot to study...
Tab mailed me this pic that she got from Tim...
She said she thought about me when she read my text haha
Thx Tab... not there yet lar I hope... almost I think
I was devotioning just the other day
... and I just asked God why are things the way they are??
I mean... I'm digging out everything I have just to survive...
Survive.... not succeed.. but Survive... (not die or burn out)
reliance and Faith is all I have really...
Then he reminded me of a song that I heard a week back from American Idol
Yes I do still follow idol.. and heroes.. and bleach...
and house...and CSI and survivor(recent addition)
Yeah a lot ... but the only one I really spend time watchign is Idol... I stay up till 2 on Wed to catch the performances.. and I either google the result or catch the 6pm show if I get the chance
the rest is multitask and watch... a 3 inch window on the corner of the computer..
some time none at all.. I just listen to Audio...
So the song... title.. So Small.. it felt like a dagger.... really =(
The words goes like this
What you got if you ain't got love?
The kind that you just wanna give away
It's okay to open up
Go ahead and let the light shine through
I know it's hard on a rainy day
You wanna shut the world out
And just be left alone
But don't run out on your faith
Cause sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
What you've been out there searching for forever
Is in your hands
And when you figure out
Love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Seem so small
It's so easy to get lost inside
A problem that seems so big at the time
It's like a river that's so wide
It swallows you whole
While you're sitting there thinking
bout what you can't change
And worrying about all the wrong things
Time's flying by, better move fast
You better make it count
cause you can't get it back
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
And what you've been out there searching for forever
Is in your hands
Oh, and when you figure out
Love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Seem so small!
OKok I admit.. I'm blessed with plenty of thigns...
But thats besides the point..
Think about it.. do you bath in the things you have??
Greateful is one thing..
But you can only enjoy the moment for physical things don't bring
Mental closure...
I'm suffering from my choices and things I cannot control...
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
And what you've been out there searching for forever
Is in your hands
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